18 May 2004
It’s no mistake that I ended up attending
The University of Texas at Austin.
God has placed me here for a
reason. I think if ever you may not be sure whether or not you’re
in line with God’s purpose
for your life, He may send you a sign, just to assure you. Well,
calling how God assured me UT was the place for me a sign is an
understatement. Ladies and gentlemen of the Web journal audience,
it was more like a billboard of reassurance.
College is so expensive. An
understatement, right? I’ve written
about my concern with financing my education. I actually questioned
if I’d be here all four years because I didn’t want
to be such a financial burden on my family. Then I questioned if
I was supposed to be at the university in the first place. Maybe
I made a mistake.
As the Bible states, the effectual fervent
prayer of a righteous man availeth much. My family and I prayed
blessing in finance.
I specifically prayed that the Lord increase my faith. I wanted
to get to a point in which there was no second guessing when I
went before the Father in prayer, that provided I was being about
His business on this Earth, he would sustain my needs. And then
God stepped in, and all of this came to pass.
In April I was awarded
the Rapoport Service Scholarship. Through it, I was awarded more
than $20,000 and a laptop computer. This,
in conjunction with the scholarship I already have, is enough to
basically cover my undergraduate education. The financial burden
of financing my education has been lifted off my family. We are
I learned a great deal from this experience.
stop. Don’t quit. I came to college thinking my family and
I would be up to our necks in debt. I felt bad because while I
was in high
school, I didn’t come away with enough scholarship money
to pay for my education. But I didn’t quit. I didn’t
stop applying for scholarships. I put forth the effort, and leaned
on God for the rest, all while seeking to strengthen my relationship
with Christ and be about His business on this campus. And then,
like I said before, He stepped in.
The Sophomore Year
I’ve learned something
else from receiving this scholarship. I have a lot of work to do.
I’ve been blessed tremendously
throughout my first year in college. There have been faculty and
upperclassmen who’ve looked out for me this year, making
my first year a lot easier than what could have very well been.
I am very thankful for them, but I also understand that next year
it’s only right that I return the favor.
After all, the only
reason I found out about the scholarship was because I was told
by an upperclassman, now close friend and frat
brother, who was previously awarded the scholarship in his freshman
year and felt the need to return the favor to those coming behind
him by telling them about it. There will be many first-year students
here next year with the same doubts, concerns, fears, uncertainties,
etc. that I had when I initially got here. In everything I’m
doing from a social standpoint next year, my energies will be geared
The scholarship I was awarded gives me an
opportunity to do a great deal of community service. My job is
to be a mentor to the incoming
first-year students and my positions in the organizations I’m
a part of require me to reach out to the incoming first-year students
as well as to the rest of the campus. I don’t mind. I wouldn’t
have it any other way. I look forward to giving back.
And the Confusion
In the first semester, I wasn’t sure
about what I wanted to do with my life. I had difficulty figuring
exactly why I
was at this university. Now, things have changed. Confusion is
no longer an issue. My mind is made up. This year has provided
clarity in terms of what I want to do with my life after college.
I want to go to law school. Over the course of the year, I needed
to check my motive. I had to ask myself why exactly I wanted to
practice law. Was it the money? Was it the prestige? I’ve
realized it’s neither. I want to practice law because it’s
genuinely something I’m interested in doing.
With this new,
more specific focus, it’s no longer about
what I want to do, but rather about doing it. This is one of the
biggest changes for me in the jump from my freshman year to my
sophomore year. I look forward to next year. I look back at myself
this time last year and the level of maturity has risen dramatically.
I wonder where I’ll be this time next year.
too big of a concern though. I’m going to
enjoy where I am now. I’m preparing for the future, but not
dwelling on it. It’s not even promised to me. Like I said
in a previous journal, when I was reflecting on the loss of a dear
friend, every day you live is precious. No two days are alike,
nor will they ever be. So why be in a hurry to get today over with?
I’m just so thankful I’ve come this far.
So, I guess
this is a happy ending to my tenure as a first-year journalist.
God has sustained and blessed me tremendously throughout
this year. I know what I want to do with my life, financing my
undergraduate education is no longer an issue and I’ve avoided
all distractions to bring my first year to a close on a highly
successful note. I’ve built my foundation at The University
of Texas at Austin. I’m ready for the next level.
Concerns? Comments? E-mail me at JaHeeZy689@hotmail.com.